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Alright, we’ve all see those movies or read those books about the secret loves. Oh how magical it really is to be the one he really wants, right. Have I ever been someone’s secret love…um…no. Have I ever been a secret…um…yes, just not a love. It amazes me that we as women still fall for this crap, but it happens all the time, even in the Chrysalis series.
Yes, the perfect Oscar was once not so perfect. In the third book you’ll actually get to hear Oscar’s voice. Occasionally he’ll flash back to his younger wilder days. When I wrote him I knew he was a playboy that every girl wants kind of a guy, I just didn’t realize how dark he really could be. “Play on playa”…or so the saying goes.
I know with how devoted Oscar is to Ellie it’s hard to imagine a time when he wasn’t like that, but lets take a look back to the first book and when he was waiting at Ellie’s locker the Monday after they started to date.
Approaching my locker, I realized I might not be so paranoid. Something foul was a foot in the sophomore hallway, to attempt to quote the classic tale of Bill and Ted. Oscar was leaning up against the locker next to mine.
He backed off so I could enter my combination. Placing a hand on the small of my back he leaned in to kiss me on the cheek. I could feel my face flush as I stumbled to remember what my combination was. With my heart pounding, I tried twice to get it. Opening up my locker, I put my books away and grabbed what I needed for the next few classes.
"A little stalkerish to be at my locker, don’t you think?"
His lips were still by my cheek. "You ashamed of me?"
"No," I scoffed.
"You’re the first girlfriend I haven’t been embarrassed to be seen with."
"Okay," I turned. Big mistake. Now we were nose-to-nose and my lips curled into a smile. "I just wasn’t expecting…"
"You thought you were a secret?"
"Well, no…just… "
He kissed me and the hallway faded away.
Although Ellie doesn’t know the full extent of Oscar’s past, she seems surprised that he’d be so open with their relationship. Why? Have we conditioned ourselves to be this way? Ironically I had the opposite conversation with a high school boyfriend of mine that was sure I was going to ignore him completely at school and was surprised when I walked right up to him on the first day as if there was nothing wrong.
Makes you wonder how many people accept being a secret. Am I abnormal or are they? Sure we say to our friends “I’d never be a secret”, but looking at a close relative’s facebook interactions more and more girls are accepting the secret status.
Now, back to Mr. Perfect, who incidentally got off easy for his wandering eyes, or was there a reason he did? How could Oscar have slept with so many girls in this day and age of social media and not have had a backlash? He was honest. He didn’t try to make each girl feel as if they were something special, because they weren’t. He didn’t lie to them and tell them he loved them. Even Mya knew the score when it came to Oscar, they basically had an agreement. She got the eye candy, he got someone who made him even more attractive, because he was “taken” and what girl doesn’t love a challenge? Who doesn’t want to be the one to make him change his wandering ways and settle down? If only he was with me then he’d stop.
Yes, with Ellie, Oscar’s faithful. He doesn’t have girls in secret, but it wasn’t Ellie that brought him to the place of realizing that what he was doing was wrong. He had to come to that conclusion on his own.
For all those secret girls or guys that have a man/boy/girl/woman who loves them “but nobody can know.” You’re one of many that “nobody can know” about. You won’t be the one to change him. And more importantly, why would you want to go through the pain of doing it and look at Jennifer from the Chrysalis series. Even a secret girlfriend can have a very real child.
The only reason that Oscar is so perfect is because he grew into his realization that girls were not objects to be played with, but were in fact human beings. Not every man learns that, but then again if the world was full of perfect Oscars all those sappy break up songs would never have been written and the little people in my head would miss them so.
Yes, the perfect Oscar was once not so perfect. In the third book you’ll actually get to hear Oscar’s voice. Occasionally he’ll flash back to his younger wilder days. When I wrote him I knew he was a playboy that every girl wants kind of a guy, I just didn’t realize how dark he really could be. “Play on playa”…or so the saying goes.
I know with how devoted Oscar is to Ellie it’s hard to imagine a time when he wasn’t like that, but lets take a look back to the first book and when he was waiting at Ellie’s locker the Monday after they started to date.
Approaching my locker, I realized I might not be so paranoid. Something foul was a foot in the sophomore hallway, to attempt to quote the classic tale of Bill and Ted. Oscar was leaning up against the locker next to mine.
He backed off so I could enter my combination. Placing a hand on the small of my back he leaned in to kiss me on the cheek. I could feel my face flush as I stumbled to remember what my combination was. With my heart pounding, I tried twice to get it. Opening up my locker, I put my books away and grabbed what I needed for the next few classes.
"A little stalkerish to be at my locker, don’t you think?"
His lips were still by my cheek. "You ashamed of me?"
"No," I scoffed.
"You’re the first girlfriend I haven’t been embarrassed to be seen with."
"Okay," I turned. Big mistake. Now we were nose-to-nose and my lips curled into a smile. "I just wasn’t expecting…"
"You thought you were a secret?"
"Well, no…just… "
He kissed me and the hallway faded away.
Although Ellie doesn’t know the full extent of Oscar’s past, she seems surprised that he’d be so open with their relationship. Why? Have we conditioned ourselves to be this way? Ironically I had the opposite conversation with a high school boyfriend of mine that was sure I was going to ignore him completely at school and was surprised when I walked right up to him on the first day as if there was nothing wrong.
Makes you wonder how many people accept being a secret. Am I abnormal or are they? Sure we say to our friends “I’d never be a secret”, but looking at a close relative’s facebook interactions more and more girls are accepting the secret status.
Now, back to Mr. Perfect, who incidentally got off easy for his wandering eyes, or was there a reason he did? How could Oscar have slept with so many girls in this day and age of social media and not have had a backlash? He was honest. He didn’t try to make each girl feel as if they were something special, because they weren’t. He didn’t lie to them and tell them he loved them. Even Mya knew the score when it came to Oscar, they basically had an agreement. She got the eye candy, he got someone who made him even more attractive, because he was “taken” and what girl doesn’t love a challenge? Who doesn’t want to be the one to make him change his wandering ways and settle down? If only he was with me then he’d stop.
Yes, with Ellie, Oscar’s faithful. He doesn’t have girls in secret, but it wasn’t Ellie that brought him to the place of realizing that what he was doing was wrong. He had to come to that conclusion on his own.
For all those secret girls or guys that have a man/boy/girl/woman who loves them “but nobody can know.” You’re one of many that “nobody can know” about. You won’t be the one to change him. And more importantly, why would you want to go through the pain of doing it and look at Jennifer from the Chrysalis series. Even a secret girlfriend can have a very real child.
The only reason that Oscar is so perfect is because he grew into his realization that girls were not objects to be played with, but were in fact human beings. Not every man learns that, but then again if the world was full of perfect Oscars all those sappy break up songs would never have been written and the little people in my head would miss them so.
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