Now it’s hard for people who live in the real world where you can’t just have a demon turn a character who’s annoying you into a pile of ash or a vampire suck the life from so you can grieve and move on with your life inventing a new “friend” to live with. No you actually have to interact with a person and meet them half way. Or in my case people usually have to go about three fourths of the way. I’m an introvert, guarded and in constant fear of saying the wrong thing. If this blog actually makes it to the digital word I’d say that I actually took a step outside into the real world.
I don’t know how many of you have seen the movie Nim’s Island but Jodie Foster plays a best selling author with a great fear of human contact. Thanks to the internet she can research fantastical places and have her character visit them. He also ‘visits’ her through out the movie which for those of us with a Muse have to laugh and say yep I’ve been there.
Now I’m not that reserved, but I can be close. It takes awhile to make it into my inner circle. Heck my husband and I have been together sixteen years and I’m sure there are parts I still hide from him, that being said I hide them from myself a lot too. The facebook, twitters and goodreads as well as these blog have allowed me the ability to step out a little bit. I say a little because I have “gone too far” when I thought I had a “friend” that I had a great little banter type relationship with only to find out I didn’t. Defriended and confused because it seemed to come out of left field I pulled back again into my shell.
Sure in theory I know Abe Lincoln said I could only please some of the people some of the time but if you go back a few paragraphs you’ll see the whole fear of saying the wrong thing comment. So how as a writer do you put yourself out there the right way? I have no frickin’ clue. Am I posting too much? Too little? I’m always surprised when people ask me “is your book out yet?” I want to scratch my head to that. Were they annoyed by my over posting and blocked my announcement? Or did they just miss the announcement completely because I didn’t do enough advertising?
So there it sits. What worked last week may not work this. I’ll go blindly, shaking in fear out into the world and hope that what I post is read and enjoyed. I hope you too can find the little people in my head as much fun as I do. Pop over a few pages to my novel cue and check them out. I don’t know if I’m doing it the right or wrong way, but truthfully it seems now there is no wrong or right and isn’t that the scariest part of it all.